Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Those days !
Past few days, my life was totally terrible ! Nothing but studies all because of the "sweet" prelims ! Burning the mid night oil kills tons and lots ! Eyes bags is like a confirm and there isn't a need to be said ! It just throw my face away and put a shame on myself just because of the eye bags ! I admit i did went out during those few days of prelims. BUT i went out to study and yes ended up shopping and playing around. But at least i did study. After 2 papers, i then realise that what i've learnt and studied the past few years, months, weeks and even days are all gone ! Dam it ! Once i've seen the paper, my mind just gone blank. I was like I did learn this last night i read it through BUT i just go blank and totally can't recall it ! Seriously a stupid and dumb thing i've ever gone through. Those days are the freak-est day i've ever had ! And i do admit that i'm starting to drop and my so call likes for studies has slowly becoming hate or lets say boring ! Nothing fun and nothing nice to remember. If everything was his name for that, for sure i've remembered it well !Prelims are happily over ! Happiness and joy ness ! Thinking of all the enjoyments i've always wanted to do. But something really bad happened ! On friday i was like suppose to catch a movie with Natasha ! But ended up didn't. I was having pms and it totally hurts ! It hurts till i fainted and even got a fever and vomited out. It was the worse pms i ever had ! Dam it ! Just blame me for drinking cold drinks which i couldn't. After few hours of suffering, i got better but weak. Drinking water makes me vomit everything out which is water. Couldn't eat anything. The tot of food at that time make me go green ! Sick sicky sick !
Saturday was bad and boring ! Every single one PS me ! I'm left alone at home. chatted online with carrie and sebas . Carrie was busy watching bleach and sebas was like asking me if i need him to accompany me. Hahas ! I played CS ! Yes yes yes ! Super fun but i've got head shot tons of time which made me totally crazy and stopped play. I wonder why i can't enjoy games like others do. Why Why Why ?! Could anyone just tell me why ?! I miss Carrie alot since friday. Hahas I hope she's happy !
Today school was BORING ! My mind wasn't ready to study but i've just got to force myself because there's 28 schooling days left and then comes the N'lvl ! Super little time left for me to catch up every single bit of work ! Just got to work hard for the aim that i've always wanted ! I believe if i study hard, i can make it ! Got back my results for English and maths ! Yes yes yes. I felt terrified when we were told that we're getting back our results ! Overall for english, i did pass but pass badly. I also did pass my maths but pass badly. Errs.. Wait ! Everything is not confirm till we've go through it. Hahas ! Sebas wanna bite me ! HURHUR ! Just because i keep telling him i'm gonna fail and ended up passing ! HURHUR !
If you think i'm still thinking of you, i can tell you that i am but i'm putting my studies in front of you ! Maybe if i avoid every single thing and just study, maybe i'll be moving on to my study life and as in you, you still will be in my heart moving on too. There's a you in my heart so nothing seems to change ! LOVES;
it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Don't want to lose the love I've found.
i flow through my act
the question is he needed and decide all the girl i can ever be.
looking at the last year like i did, i could never see us ending like this.
seeing your face no more on my pillow is a scene that's never happened to me.
but after this episode i don't see, you could never tell the next thing life could be.
you say you wont then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
He keeps his distance and sits on fences puts up resistance and builds defenses.
And now, it's my turn to keep my distance and sits on fences puts up resistance and bulids defenses.
Don't you know how it feels like to know you're no long here for me
It hurts when you're gone
The key to your heart have changed
and i was the last to know the key has change
Do you how it feels to love someone so strong
that he told you that he was just playing with your feelings
And that could have made me suicidal !
Can you tell me that you're happy now?
2:05 pm